Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Upcoming 8 Year Anniversary >> 01:51 pm
5 ging 5 gok, 8 years is coming up. Who would have thought that we would be sitting here and reflecting back on the first day we started going out. We've survived through the hardship and hopefully now, nothing but clear skies are upon us. Hopefully we'll be able to celebrate this year in each other's arms embracing one another.
Much <3 always
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Thursday, September 02, 2010
[mood] at a daze >> 05:34 pm
For some reason, it's always you who makes me frustrated, and you who makes me mad, and you who makes me loose all senses and want to get you out of my life. Seems like we're going through a loop, and no matter how many silent treatments i throw your way, it seems like the effects are wearing off, and it no longer affects you. Out of everyone, i would expect you to know me the best, to understand my deepest darkest secrets and fears, and yet i feel like i can no longer trust you... in return you confessed you no longer trusted me... is there a point letting this friendship linger and watch it suffer everytime we throw bitch fits at one another, or maybe its best if we go our separate ways, and find a new friendship elsewhere where we can bury our darkest secrets in the bottom of the ocean... maybe this dark ocean of secrets will be calmer and won't stir a storm like the way ours did
Wish you could see it my way, but we're both too stubborn for our own good... too stubborn to ever admit we're wrong... to stubborn to see that there's nothing left in this dry disturbed friendship.... aquantance....nothingness of ours...
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Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Finally came to my senses. It was you i wanted all along. With you by my side i have nothing to fear. With you by my side i will be happy for the rest of my life. With you by my side i will always be whole. With you by my side i can conquer whatever life throws at me. With you by my side i am no longer lonely. With you by my side i at a bliss state of mind. With you by my side i have no worries. With you by my side i have no fears. With you by my side i am no longer angry. With you by my side i will be happy forever
With you by my side the world is perfect once again
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Wednesday, November 04, 2009
So here it is, life's going down the drain. No goals, no plans, no ambitions, no future
I guess i can say that i've pretty much ruined my own life, but in the bigger picture, it isn't about me anymore. Nothing is about me.
What was the point of short term happiness? in order to endure a life-long time of agony, regret, hate and self doubt? The messed up part is, i would probably do it again, and for what cost? in trade for all my friends... then again... what friends? ... During the hardest time in life, seldomly do friends remember you. Oh hippee hooray, you found out your friend is going through something tragic, and you decide to FB and TXT them.. oh joy (not)... this just really shows that they aren't as concerned as you want to be... but then again... if they call you, or visit you... what difference would that make if you've lost all interest in talkin to anyone?
how its so fickle... its time to pick people off my friendship list. Lets begin with you, oh and don't worry, you're next.
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Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Mild, Medium, Hot and Spicy
What's your flavour?
Mild - It's always nice to start out from the bottom most safest flavour. Most people are content with the mild flavour. its always the best fall back when all fails. Mild is never changing, always there when you need it, always there to protect your taste buds. So caring and tender is mild, but after a long period of time, mild becomes plain. And who would ever want to just settle with plain? Time to move on, and try a different flavour.
Medium - Now medium is just one step above mild. What a nice change. It definately gives a little kick in life. Walking hand in hand with medium isn't bad. This is something i can live with. But sometimes, medium is inconsistant, and then it becomes bland. Looking back, medium is not that much better than mild. Why not move foward?
Hot - This is definately a breath of fresh air! *breath in, breath out* wow, this is what i've been looking for, a flavour to blow my taste buds away. Dayem, this will leave me addicted. It has the right amount of flare, kick, the whole ten mile! Where have you been hiding all this time? So glad i got the chance to break free from the other 2 flavours and explore the sensational taste of hot hot hot. I can see myself being quite content just here... But.. my curiosity wanders...
Spicy - OMiGosh... *choking, can't breathe* help!! the fiery side of spicy is way out of this world, a world that i would never want to explore. A world where it will never bring me happiness. no, i dont want spicy. it will definately ruin my taste buds. Better back out, before i destroy my senses.
Overview of Flavours - At this present moment, i only have the taste buds for Hot. for how long? i'm not sure. that's just where i want to be. But in the longrun, will Hot sizzle down? For sure i wouldn't want to move foward from Hot, but if i were to move backwards, wouldn't it be a "safe fail" plan to just stick with ordinary mild? at least that way, i know mild cares about my taste buds and would never try to pretend it was something it's not.
Just like in life, what you want you cannot get, and what you have, you dont want.
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Note-to-self: Live in the moment. Find Mr. Right Now, that's all i need. Time can only tell if Mr. Right belongs to me.
I am my own priority
o^-^o
Friday, March 06, 2009
on second thought -_-'' >> 01:45 pm
maybe its me, i need better friends....
o^-^o
i swear to god, i will disown you. Don't stalk me like some physco boyfriend killer. OMFG, i didn't talk to you one day, cuz i was super busy and had to go to bed early. OMG, i hung up on you, cry me a river. pathetic. i'll talk to you on my own terms. theres is no fking contract where i says i have to to talk to you every single day of my life... can someone say, desperate? fk, move on, get a gf, get out of my hair, yeah, you're my bestfrnd, so what? act like a bestfrnd, not like a jealous boyfriend. dont be messaging me and asking me "where have you been all day? why werne't you online? howcome you dind't asnwer my text messages? howcome you ignore my phonecall? why did you hang up on me?" uhh... here's some food for thought, "Why are you such a loser for?"
yeah, i admit, im mean. but this is what you get for acting like my boyfriend when you aren't. if you act more like a bestfrd, then everything would be fine and dandy like sugar floss and candy.
get a grip on yourself. you're just embarrassing yourself.
o^-^o
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
I have so many mixed up feelings. im really not sure what to do anymore at this point. the only thing im even remotely interested in doing, is rebel against everything i believe in and grown up knowing. this means hurting people and leaving them behind. should i choose security for the future, or live in the present time and see where it takes me. my heart is so confused, but i do know for sure is...
life is way to bland and boring. need to spice it up.
o^-^o
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
[mood] Soul Searching >> 12:50 pm
You know, thinking back, i've done some F#$@ up $H!& in my life, most of the things, i'm not entirely proud of. but sometimes i just can't help but continue... why? well, i guess after my life has been pretty much the same for the past half decade, its fun to surround life with some drama. drama keeps the world turning and keeps things interesting. downfall? well drama turns into a lot of conflict, and being stupid as i am, i dont know how to stop it. always holding out, and wishing that time will heal all. pathetic. time heals nothing but creates deeper wounds, and when the wounds dont heal, you're left with absolutely nothing, not even a soul.
I've lost my soul entirely. have you seen it? i dont think mine will ever come back, i'll never be the same again, theres no turning back... theres no hope... no light.... just emptiness
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